Feeling Better

I've appeared to come out of my FUNK! Which is super exciting because feeling low is no bueno. Working for my parents is going well. It gives me an opportunity to spend some QT with the rents and learn what they do on a whole different level. I came to Grundy this weekend to visit Justin and go to his formal with him. I know this sounds crazy but I really love Grundy. It's been raining here and Justin and I have been cleaning his apartment and cooking all afternoon. Ah! Sleeping in and cooking.......what a fab day!
Last night when I arrived I was greeted with a dozen roses, my favorite candy (chocolate and skittles). I am such a lucky girl.

Back to nesting for now.

Some Pic's POST Bar Exam!

Justin, Katy, Miranda, Brandon & I at Fat Tuesdays!

Aimee Cole's Wedding! The whole ASL gang! Gosh, I miss these guys!

Justin and I at Aimee's Wedding!

Bristol Race

Scotty & Christie's Wedding in Wrightsville Beach

Figuring it OUT!

It's the craziest thing, I'm the absolute most happy I've ever been and yet the saddest at the same time. Is this possible? I've been doing a LOT of praying and self reflection and I think I know why I'm in this fit of mini depression.

1. Justin is 4 hours away from me and that just makes my heart hurt thinking about it. While I see him every weekend, it just isn't enough! I can't wait for the day that I get to wake up to his silly sleepy eyes every morning!

2. The bar results are looming in the distance and it's like my life is in limbo..... Will I find a job? Will I be able to make my student loan payment come January? Will I pass the bar? The unsureness of it all is killing me. I've always been the type of girl who has a plan, who's organized, who knows what's around every corner and is prepared to take anything head on. But this feeling is SO different. I feel so unsure about myself and my career path. I pray that God has a plan for me and I just need to let go and listen.

3. My life is in transit. I'm living with my parent's again, which is a huge change considering I haven't ever really lived at home since I was 18 years old. I love being home! Don't get me wrong- I LOVE IT! But on the same note...it's not MINE anymore. There's no place for my bedroom suite, my dishes, my linens, etc. and I am just so ready to settle down into a place with my own lil space in the world.

So, in a nut shell - I'm a big ole' ball of confusion.....and it's all gonna be A-Okay!

Oh! Marta passed the bar! Yay! That's wonderful and I'm super happy for my crazy lil pint of Ben and Jerrys!

Enough for tonight....

-Ames-

Reflection

Wowzers! It's been almost 2 months since I've taken the bar and life has been....well NUTS to say the least.

First, let's talk about the bar exam. It's over! Thank God! It was the absolute hardest 3 days of my life but......it's over. All the preparation, all the hard work, all the sweat and tears and ........it's over. It's the weirdest experience, one that I have never felt. The 2 days of essay questions were brutal but I forged through, prayed to God for clarity and made the best of 24 hours of test taking. The MBE section really got me though.....it was like nothing I had ever seen before and inside I panicked a lil but the upside to the madness is that everyone else had the same feeling. I think that the MBE test givers are pissed with BARBRI and PMBR and decided to throw the biggest curve ball ever.........AH!!!!!!! Again, it's over and yet I can't quit dwelling on it. I guess it doesn't help that I have dreams every other night that I screwed up. Oh well, it's over! Letting go is half the battle and one of which I haven't conquored quite yet.

After the bar exam, Justin and I went to Myrtle and met my family for a great week of fun, sun and relaxing. It was just what my very very tired body needed. I think I slept till 2pm for 3 days straight. I was just completely zonked!

After Myrtle we came back to Thomasville for a couple days to gather my thoughts and get a lil organized before heading to Knoxville to meet J's family. They were fantastic, YAY! You never know when you walk into a new family but they were super sweet and I was so grateful to feel comfy with all of them. I should have known that anyone that could raise such an amazing man would be equally as great.

After Knoxville, we headed to Grundy and got Justin moved into his new apartment and got him all settled in to start his last year of law school! I see him every weekend but it's just not enough and I miss him terribly! 8 more months of lawyer school and LIFE BEGINS!

I've been working for my parents and sending out resumes while I wait to hear back from the SC bar exam results. The wait is KILLING me! NC's came back 2 weeks ago and it made my stomache flutter with nervousness. My most favoritest people in the world passed and I am super happy for all of them! YaY! Congrats Janet, Bobby, Ashley, Bridgette, Michaela and Derek!! So happy for you guys!

I've been saying a lil prayer for all of us that are still waiting! I pray that we all do well!

Well, the blogging is done for the night.............

More to come in the craziness that I call life............

GROUNDHOG'S DAY

Bill Murray's Got NOTHING on US! Every day is the same. Wake up: eat, coffee, brush teeth, take adderall & excedrine/alieve, study for hrs, more coffee, eat a piece of fruit, study some more, maybe eat dinner, study some more, more coffee, attempt to drink water to hydrate, study again, contemplate silently either a) killing myself out of complete fear and stress (joke) or b)get in car and drive....continuously in 1 direction w/o looking back. The good news---- this craziness ends in 10 days. In 10 days life will get semi-normal again. I'm getting anxious, nervous, there's fit of crying at least once a night but it's ALMOST over and Kristie and I have done the work, studied the material and haven't let up for a second. It's all up to God now, and that's just fine with us.

-A-

Running Low on Steam

The past two weeks have been super hard on me. I've been staying up all hours of the night, waking up bright and early- and trying to get this stuff down to a T. I've been condensing the 35pg outlines, that Kristie had already pared down from 300pgs, to 2-3 pagers. Going back over the material, scrutinizing the big stuff, trying to memorize lists, factors, elements and then doing MBE questions to boot. I'm tired. Simply Tired but I'm forging ahead. Thursday Kristie and I took a practice MBE test and I scored 137 out of 200 questions. Which is pretty good considering the MBE graders give you a 20-25 pt curve on top of your raw score. And all I need is a 120 in SC. So, I'm feeling okay about that stuff. Trying to go over 1 MBE subj a night though to keep refreshed.

Today I decided that after not leaving my apartment for, oh let's see 8 days- with the only exception of walking across the street to Publix, I needed a change of scenery. Today I'm studying at B&N trying to condense my Civ Pro outline to 3 pages. YUCK. It's coming along though. I'm just ready for this whole process to be over. I need to sleep for at least 3 days straight and get my life back on a normal schedule - one not consisting of coffee, adderall, bennadryl, 20 hr work days and 3.5 hours of sleep. I'm ready to start life, real life. I miss my family and Justin so much it hurts. A combination of all of it is just too much....but the beauty of it all....It's almost over. I'm surviving.

8 1/2 days and the big test begins. I will be ready. I will do well.

Say a prayer and cross your fingers because I can use all the help I can get.

Amy

Feeling the Burn

Today, I threw out all the food in our apartment that wasn't healthy. I've felt like crap for the last 2 weeks and I decided it was because I was clepto-eating everything NOT GOOD for me! Chocolate, Chips, Cookies, Candy, Cokes --- ALL GONE! ha! the 5 C's were bringing me down. I went to the grocery store and picked up tons of fresh veggies and fruits to keep us healthy for the next 2 weeks.

Today was Sales and I feel really good about the subject. I took the afternoon and went over Contracts as well and did some practice MBE ?s and was hitting about 75% which is pretty good. Tim came by and we traded some outlines and charts and while he was here he showed me a video and it was just what I needed to feel - well - crappy. A headache and no sleep has had me down a little today. Here's the video. Watch and enjoy!! I think it will bring a smile to your face. This is LAWYER SCHOOL all wrapped up in a song!



Tonight I'm going to narrow down my Remedies outline and hand write the Sales outline. Lots to do!!!! Kristie and I were discussing earlier -- if only the bar were based on all the "case law" we've learned from watching EVERY Law & Order ever made?! I would be sure to pass with flying colors.

It's almost over......

Thank God.

-Amy-