Feeling Better

I've appeared to come out of my FUNK! Which is super exciting because feeling low is no bueno. Working for my parents is going well. It gives me an opportunity to spend some QT with the rents and learn what they do on a whole different level. I came to Grundy this weekend to visit Justin and go to his formal with him. I know this sounds crazy but I really love Grundy. It's been raining here and Justin and I have been cleaning his apartment and cooking all afternoon. Ah! Sleeping in and cooking.......what a fab day!
Last night when I arrived I was greeted with a dozen roses, my favorite candy (chocolate and skittles). I am such a lucky girl.

Back to nesting for now.

Some Pic's POST Bar Exam!

Justin, Katy, Miranda, Brandon & I at Fat Tuesdays!

Aimee Cole's Wedding! The whole ASL gang! Gosh, I miss these guys!

Justin and I at Aimee's Wedding!

Bristol Race

Scotty & Christie's Wedding in Wrightsville Beach

Figuring it OUT!

It's the craziest thing, I'm the absolute most happy I've ever been and yet the saddest at the same time. Is this possible? I've been doing a LOT of praying and self reflection and I think I know why I'm in this fit of mini depression.

1. Justin is 4 hours away from me and that just makes my heart hurt thinking about it. While I see him every weekend, it just isn't enough! I can't wait for the day that I get to wake up to his silly sleepy eyes every morning!

2. The bar results are looming in the distance and it's like my life is in limbo..... Will I find a job? Will I be able to make my student loan payment come January? Will I pass the bar? The unsureness of it all is killing me. I've always been the type of girl who has a plan, who's organized, who knows what's around every corner and is prepared to take anything head on. But this feeling is SO different. I feel so unsure about myself and my career path. I pray that God has a plan for me and I just need to let go and listen.

3. My life is in transit. I'm living with my parent's again, which is a huge change considering I haven't ever really lived at home since I was 18 years old. I love being home! Don't get me wrong- I LOVE IT! But on the same note...it's not MINE anymore. There's no place for my bedroom suite, my dishes, my linens, etc. and I am just so ready to settle down into a place with my own lil space in the world.

So, in a nut shell - I'm a big ole' ball of confusion.....and it's all gonna be A-Okay!

Oh! Marta passed the bar! Yay! That's wonderful and I'm super happy for my crazy lil pint of Ben and Jerrys!

Enough for tonight....

-Ames-

Reflection

Wowzers! It's been almost 2 months since I've taken the bar and life has been....well NUTS to say the least.

First, let's talk about the bar exam. It's over! Thank God! It was the absolute hardest 3 days of my life but......it's over. All the preparation, all the hard work, all the sweat and tears and ........it's over. It's the weirdest experience, one that I have never felt. The 2 days of essay questions were brutal but I forged through, prayed to God for clarity and made the best of 24 hours of test taking. The MBE section really got me though.....it was like nothing I had ever seen before and inside I panicked a lil but the upside to the madness is that everyone else had the same feeling. I think that the MBE test givers are pissed with BARBRI and PMBR and decided to throw the biggest curve ball ever.........AH!!!!!!! Again, it's over and yet I can't quit dwelling on it. I guess it doesn't help that I have dreams every other night that I screwed up. Oh well, it's over! Letting go is half the battle and one of which I haven't conquored quite yet.

After the bar exam, Justin and I went to Myrtle and met my family for a great week of fun, sun and relaxing. It was just what my very very tired body needed. I think I slept till 2pm for 3 days straight. I was just completely zonked!

After Myrtle we came back to Thomasville for a couple days to gather my thoughts and get a lil organized before heading to Knoxville to meet J's family. They were fantastic, YAY! You never know when you walk into a new family but they were super sweet and I was so grateful to feel comfy with all of them. I should have known that anyone that could raise such an amazing man would be equally as great.

After Knoxville, we headed to Grundy and got Justin moved into his new apartment and got him all settled in to start his last year of law school! I see him every weekend but it's just not enough and I miss him terribly! 8 more months of lawyer school and LIFE BEGINS!

I've been working for my parents and sending out resumes while I wait to hear back from the SC bar exam results. The wait is KILLING me! NC's came back 2 weeks ago and it made my stomache flutter with nervousness. My most favoritest people in the world passed and I am super happy for all of them! YaY! Congrats Janet, Bobby, Ashley, Bridgette, Michaela and Derek!! So happy for you guys!

I've been saying a lil prayer for all of us that are still waiting! I pray that we all do well!

Well, the blogging is done for the night.............

More to come in the craziness that I call life............